the path

when i am alone with thoughts that would kill me
when everything's black and no light to see
when i have to decide whether to wait or go
whether to stand or walk
or to find a way
when i search for roads and i meet dead ends
when i will search for doves for letters to be sent
when i will go on with your memories or to leave them behind
that day i shall know that its my time.
time i can't stop, time i never held
time which will itself take me to places
where i'd never been
the paths which are unseen.
time will take me to death
time will only lay me on that bed
time will make me do it all.
time will lead me to god.

forgive me

oh mother! oh my!
oh lord! i shall never ask you why!
i am off for battles and wars and tease
but i pray my lord that behind me you keep them in peace
peace for those who i love.
peace for the dear ones to me
peace for below and above.
peace to be free.
may i leave today but come again
hope i don't lose as i have nothing much gained.
keep my will going, and let the rain fall
keep the sky full of stars for the little ones to count to sleep.
i wish they count for endless sheep's , as stars will be counted till i come
because i will be far, far away protecting some.
this uniform i wore was a commitment to be made
that i shall return home but first play by my fate.
don't know where someone will put me in my grave
but i will be happy that i died to make you safe.
don't worry family, if the sad news arrives
because later or sooner we all shall reunite.
oh family! forgive me if you can! i wasn't there for you!
i wasn't there in the darkest times
neither was i there when it was fine.
and maybe i shall never be there.
as i am off for duty here,
but believe me! i think of all!
and i shall return by fall
but i ain't doing any promises
as i have the sleeps of millions at my feet.
i am sorry if i don't return but i wish to stay in your memory.

RED

i searched for miles and days and hours but sorry my love,
i couldn't give you a flower.
a blue, green, pink or yellow
oh my! what a foolish fellow!
tell me why you angry? did i do something wrong?
did i not sing your favorite song?
tell me i ain't that strong
to hold on waiting for your answer.

it's time , it's been too long. i must leave
but speak ! i beg you! was the dinner not tasty?
or were the lights not good?
was it me? was it the place i stood?
was it the time? or was my attire fake?
you looked up and whispered with tears
and went away leaving me with the worst fear
i can still hear those slow lines
what more could a girl take? not dresses, not wine,
not being lavishly fed
but a rose with the color of red.

monsters

hello! have any one of you ever had goosepumps? like adrealine rush and send thrills to your spine? as a kid everyone wills to not sleep alone. no one wants to get struck in a horror movie alone. remember the time when you were forced to sleep in a dark, ill ventilaed room full of scary things. after the light is swithched off there are a billion thigs you'd figure out that could be or you'd just look at the pile of clothes racked up on the chair and assume it to be a monster looking at you. for  a moment everything in the room is coming alive. even the tinyiest noise will be of a serial killer. as a kid i am very well aware of that feeling. believe me or not but i get scared to death when something even moves an inch. out of 100, 60% children complain about monsters under their bed. well honestly no signs have been found of weird lond hair, slime or anything else determining to be a monster. they say that bloody mary comes at twelve in the night when you say bloody mary three times while looking in the mirror. they even say that ghost exist. but i say that real monsters are never found under the bed, they are sleeping on the beds. bloody mary comes out at twelve to tell people to be aware. and ghosts are just people who are insensetive. these aren't myths but the people are. what are we looking for? money, greedyness , selfish people , people who give up their dreams . people who steal someone's hard earning. people who kill . people who tease. what about others? not everyone's like that? yes, not everyone's like that. the rest are just ordinary people who listen. they never utter a single word against anything. they just go on. like puppets. if we don't take part in a developing the change then we are not a part of the change. the fact is that monsters are for real. not huge or scary looking but like normal people who blend between us. why do we look for monsters under our bed when the real monsters are inside our head?

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all the christmas

All the Christmas

And all the days ,

And all festival

Yummy - yummy cakes.

All the time and all the days

To do something,

Think !

In your mind what are we doing.

do some new work

and become a new man.

magic!

Magic

Hey, you. If you are reading this then read it slowly and steadily. Really slowly. Let this absorb into you and let it reach your soul. Don’t say a word, just read this in your mind.

NOW SCREAM! NOT ACTUALLY, BUT INSIDE YOUR HEAD. This scream has gone away? Hasn’t it? As I turned off the caps lock. NOW SCREAM AGAIN!

Now whisper...... that what you are reading should be a secret. Even though you are reading it in your mind, without speaking a word but you have to whisper.

Is.your.voice.also.breaking.inside.your.head.and.you.are.speaking.with.jerks.like.as.soon.as.we.push.the.accelerator.at.the.same.moment.we.press.the.brake.isn’t.it.really.irretating.to.read.like.this.even.though.it’s.just.a.normal.sentence.about.your.inner.voice.?.

Now read it really fast! Isn’t it great? What you actually wasted your time upon? Like really and I know that you are reading this really fast now. That’s only because I told you to do so. How can you agree with a total stranger like me? Have you lost your mind? And now I think that this is making no sense at all!!!!!!!!!!

Now show me that old and sick voice. Read this in your head in an old and sick voice.”Hey son bring me some medicines when you come back.”  

Now, let’s get back to normal. Isn’t it like magic how this strange voice inside your head reads everything the way it’s written? It’s like you are reading something in your mind but your mind is reading it out loud with its own voice. *coughs* see? When I just wrote that I just coughed didn’t you heard someone coughing inside that stupid brain of yours? Can you hear this voice? Which is reading every single word right now as if it’s giving a lecture or something? Yes? No? Go on. Think. Didn’t figured it out? Well okay I too didn’t got a solution either but all I ended up other than cursing this voice of mine is that it’s a voice, a chatterbox which never shuts. Perfect companion for a woman but many women don’t prefer its company. It automatically starts even though you just said it to shut up. Ok, try this. Tell that voice to shut up. Not like that. SCREAM AND TELL IT TO SHUTUP!!Did it stop speaking? No, infect it was repeating your words. Isn’t that a copycat! It’s so shameless that it isn’t even stopping now! And finally you give up. So, basically this chatterbox is the voice of your brain. Wait? Voice of my brain? Is my brain becoming a zombie? No, your brain isn’t becoming a zombie . Its simply expressing itself using a voice which can be only partially heard b you. You’re like its best friend! All it ever does is stick to you and talk to you and tells you everything. For the ones who are happy about it yay! And for the ones who are not. All we can do is think less because this sticky friend is suppose to stick with you for your whole life. Anyways, have you ever thought of its advantages? Ok, let me tell you

1. It works for you. ONLY YOU. Take it as a slave or a friend. It’s loyal, friendly and helping. No matter how much you deny it you’ll have to accept the fact that this is the voice which plays those song lyrics inside your head when you’re not listening to any song.

2. it’s loyal. Never going to do backbitching. Never going to share your secret’s to anyone. So you can always share yours with it.

3. Like every human being is different, same condition is with it. Sometimes it stays quiet and observes, sometimes it over thinks, sometimes it doesn’t lets you sleep and sometimes it just won’t stop!

4. it’s so like you! If you are confused between watching spider man or batman it will agree on watching the movie you’d want to see. No complains. Wether it be a movie or a dish or almost anything. You are the boss here.

5. Even if you look miserable like a beggar from the streets, it’s going to love you. No matter what you do it’s always by your side. Always. It can’t stop admiring how beautiful you are!

Well, I don’t know about yours but mine is totally a freak! It wants everything it sees and is totally into fashion. And guess what it made me write all this! Well honestly I love it but I hate it when it doesn’t lets me sleep! Any doctor for it?